Content

So..a few months ago I posted about "Baby #4". I talked about how we (mainly I) were thinking if we should expand our family or not and the reasons why. I left it that I would pray about it because I didn't feel like I really knew the answer. I really felt torn. I said we would revisit the subject over the summer. We did. And now...I feel much more content with the decision that as of right now..we're done.

I have prayed about it. And I'm glad to say that my baby fever is pretty much gone. The reason I'm glad is because it's not fun having baby fever when your partner says "We just can't afford another one". I mean, we could have made it work. God does provide. But, we know we would be stretched financially if we added another baby to the family.

So, I felt like the only thing holding us back was finances. I really felt like I wanted another baby..that we weren't complete. But, now... I feel different. Babies are wonderful..don't get me wrong. But, they are so.much.work. And thinking about how much work a newborn is just makes me feel tired. I don't know if I want to go through all that again (right now). I'm truly enjoying the stage we're in now with the boys. They are so much more independent and a lot of fun. It's easier going places and doing things.  I'm not thinking about when/if we'll get pregnant again. I'm thinking about "Oh, I can't wait until the holidays this year!" "I can't wait until Disney World next year!!" "The beach is going to be so much fun next summer!" I'm looking forward to making more memories with our boys. Enjoying them.

I look at my three beautiful healthy boys and I feel content. Blessed. And thankful. Is that to say that we're completely closing the door to another baby. No. However, we're going to enjoy our boys and take it one day at a time. God holds the future and I'm going to put my trust in Him.

And be content.